I feel angry that I don’t understand sex

TW: internalised issues, I don’t want to offend anyone

20m here.

I’ve tired multiple times to have sex but I don’t get it. I feel like kissing is overwhelming and gross, then in the sex I just feel sad.

Up until this point Ive identified as gay but I just don’t feel happy. Each time after sex I feel gross, or overwhelmed. No, this isn’t internalised homophobia, I just generally don’t like having someone touch me so much. I have autism too but don’t receive support that I need.

I just feel like I’m broken.

Sex is meant to be this wonderful amazing thing, but I’m meant to be okay with not getting it? It’s not like I have something in my life to fill in that void.

It’s like being allergic to cake, but then everyone saying ‘it’s fine to not enjoy cake!!’ While eating a load of cake, talking about cake all the time, and making jokes about cake every second they get.

I do not want to be this way. I’m not satisfied with being this way but if I try tell anyone about it they just say it’s fine to not like sex. They don’t understand that I WANT to like it!

I don’t know what to do

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